Thoughts on Recovery.
Today, I wanted to take a short hiatus from my recovery tips and share an insight that I feel very strongly about.
It is all too easy to get sucked into the almost hustle-like culture of trying to recover.
I know this has certainly been the case for me.
Obsessively searching for the next treatment to try, lengthy to-do lists, all of which can generate more stress for an already tenuous nervous system.
That being said, I wholeheartedly believe that the reason I am in the position I am today is largely due to the small, daily actions I have taken.
Of course, part of it may be luck, my age, my circumstances etc.
But when I think of the torment I was experiencing just 4/5 months ago and the position I am in now.
I refuse to believe that the commitment to my daily practices is anything but a gigantic part of the reason why.
That being said, I want to be honest and raw.
I still struggle with knowing exactly what I should be doing.
What will help me the most with the finite energy I have?
There are endless things that may help, so picking and choosing is tough.
I also do not do what I set out to do.
I regularly miss a day of somatic work.
I also often eat sweet treats (popcorn and Maltesers, for example, yesterday) and throw my pen down after 30 seconds of journaling.
And that’s ok.
But I won’t bullshit you, I have been relentlessly consistent.
I’ve found a few things that have seemed to help me.
Expressive journaling, somatic work & brain training.
And I have not missed more than one day for the last few months.
It is a hard balance to find when dealing with something like Long Covid.
The balance between holding yourself accountable and that unhealthy perfectionism that, for so many of us, may have contributed to us becoming ill in the first place.
But I wholeheartedly believe that with the relentless, long-term pursuit of unremarkable daily actions.
You can see unremarkable changes.
And I am living proof.
